Pathos

Reminding oneself to take risks, not rely on what you think you know. Both getting lost and keeping on locating yourself. Making a mess but being tidy in process. Keen now to get on with this and enjoy the process more. I think that the portrayal of a scene is particularly easy because the involvement of the painter is only perfunctory. To get involved in the painting it almost has to be a painting of a painting or else the paint is decorative. The paint has to dictate the image. This implies a humility, interest in and of its self, and the openess to non-prescribed activity. The boundaries of how I am going about it are defined but not decided. I am finding out. The necessary self-discipline to go into it fully. Stepping away from that which is easy and representational. Moving away from the making of marks to confirm ones existence, rather the making of marks to explore ones existence. I don't need to keep reminding myself I am here! Beauty in that which is ugly, which stops a thing being anything; non-defined. Representing the non-physical in pure physicality. So maybe it is about saying everything without the signifiers, the confidence to not have to tell a story?